>>11896350Just John Nash it OP.
You have fucked up perceptions compared to the rest of us. This means you have a chance to view and understand the world in ways which we would never think possible. Find a field you're interested in and add your own views to it. Think of what John Nash did or what Terry Davis managed to accomplish. I hope your country offers welfare support because if so, then you can just unironically 'autistically' devote yourself to a field you are passionate in and make miles of progress beyond what any 'normal' human can
Don't fuck your brain up OP. It's already fucked up. Now find ways to fuck the world with your fuckups