>>11885149I have tried that first suggestion without much success, it's very hard to do nothing at all for a weekend. The last time i tried i broke down quickly and started cleaning stuff/reading a book. I've had weed before but unless you're suggesting that mdma brings about permanent changes past its high then both are only bandaids.
>>11885794For my entire adult life, as far as I can remember. The only times I've had normal emotional functioning and the ability to feel real pleasure, and I want to be clear here - not just euphoria - was during and shortly after 1 trip of acid, not on any subsequent trips, during some sessions of weed years ago, which I don't smoke regularly anymore, and during an onset of hypomania when I trialed sertraline but faded after a few days and also stopped working completely. At no other point in my life can I honestly say I've felt pleasure, enjoyed something or felt anything more than just being content.
>>11885909For some time my sleep was awful, waking up 5+ times a night, on the hour every hour practically. I tried weed for a bit but it didn't help, stopped and used melatonin and it helped get me to sleep but not stay asleep. That persisted for longer than a year until I was stressing out about it and finally got on mirtazapine which has helped my sleep a lot. So now my sleep is generally restful and I'm not very groggy in the morning.
>>11885931It makes being sociable impossible, eating a chore and life in general sort of awful. I can't just float around in a pleasureless daze my entire life, there's no point to living then. I still have hobbies but without a passion for anything it really fucks up your memory and motivation.
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