Is there anyone in medicine that can knows about the mind? I've never got a real answer for this from any doctor I've seen. Or nurse practitioner. I know there's something wrong with the way my mind works. I feel broken and detached from other human beings.

What causes 'mind blank' is the only way I can describe it. I have very few thoughts, am very un-creative, mostly only respond to peoples questions, or ask them questions (I fail at social banter/flirting completely i honestly dont know how to do it my mind doesnt work that way). I don't start spontaneous unique/creative conversations, out of pure inability. I avoid interacting with others due to this beyond asking them "How is it going?" or something simple. I can repeat facts I know, but I fail at leading conversations socially. I'm very boring to be around I imagine.

I rarely feel emotions, mild happiness at times, or anxiety/discomfort. I'm blank otherwise.

I notice other people speak differently than me. They are able to converse for longer periods of time, they make more 'statements/unique or creative thoughts or comments' while I almost exclusively just ask people questions over and over because it's all I am capable of doing.

My mind feels empty and dull. I am a much better writer than speaker. I mix up words constantly when speaking, and lose my train of thought mid sentence sometimes.

Is this a symptom of a disease/disorder or something? I do not like how my mind is.