>>11790429>>11790479also i might add - i went to a psych for a couple of times - had clinical deprresion, tried suicide, spent a moth in a bed just crying - my stomach hurt from all the crying
Ive spent a year of my life a broken mess - i also had a nervous breakdown (i wanted to stab my abusive father with a knife and run away from home) - but when i tried mushrooms man - i laughed from the heart with my mates - i havent laughed that heart since childhood
And i had some visions of the multiverse and hippy shit like that - i was profoundly changed
My psych gave me an anti depressive, sleeping medicine and something to get me calm - i lost all apetite from that medicine - threw it all away after a month
The trip on mushrooms though - my first - after that i started researching meditation because i got the idea while on mushrooms - i started meditaton and i had a lucid dream inside my regular nighmare (that involves my abusive step father) - after that i never had that nightmare again, also never again i had those dreams where you just die or your face melts - all the dreams that would leave me crying and woke and sweaty in the middle of the knight
Mushrooms helped me see first of all -
How skewed my perception is while im sober and how you can actually see things from a different angle - those realisations alone and meditation helped me to reckognize the thought patterns that usually lead to me getting fucking ruined by my own thoughts
Many years later - ive been free from depression and i feel really good