>>11754499i have to watch videos several times before i can even string words into sentences. to address your anxiety, lets examine the following possibilities:
1. intelligence is fixed
in this case, theres nothing you can do to improve long term cognitive performance. its out of your hands and trying to change it is fighting the wind. in this case, since your fate is sealed, you are free to pursue whatever satisfies you most and nobody could fault you for doing so since you cannot become smarter. maybe try art or music
2. intelligence is dynamic
you are on your way to becoming smarter. maybe its taking a bit longer than expected but differential intelligence is not intelligence. maybe others increase intelligence faster than you do, ie their dIQ/dt is larger than yours. but higher derivatives of intelligence are not immediately obvious from the data. maybe your d^2IQ/dt^2 is higher than thiers. that is, the rate at which your learning rate is increasing is greater than theirs. could even be higher order activity, d^100IQ/dt^100. such effects are so suble across the length of a human lifetime they could hardly be measured, but at the end of the day we can only play so many of the cards we are dealt and we can see even fewer. if you dont enjoy the game, theres always suicide. i dont recommend the option, but that its there means you are choosing to keep playing every day. so choose in stride. nobody likes a moapy midwit
