>>11728518Not even
You've already passed in some cases, failed in others
you're just watching one path. If its a failing one, it will end soon enough and return to square 1 (or wherever it started to go wrong)
if its not failing, well, thats why its still going.
Awhile ago I realized something wild about suicide. You're bound to wake up as all the consciousness that you didn't identify as when you were alive. Except with no memory of yourself, as your body is now underground decaying.
But if you live a long life trying to be a good force in the world, upon death, you wake up in a world made better or worse by your existence. You're under the illusion of individual identity, so you (as any person connected to the body that was you before) just see your dead body and if you were an asshole, you think "wow glad that guy's finally dead" and if you were not, the world you exist in is improved as a result of the life you lived in that body.
TL;DR what goes around comes around
