>>11654311basically you know the same feeling you get when you've drunk alcohol? Well if you've ever had a lifetime problem with "anxiety" and generally been overly emotional and pathetic then you would probably experience extreme relief when under the effects of benzos or alcohol
You understand how easy it is mentally for the average person who just looks at you and thinks you're a special snowflake which you probably are except you don't know what to do or how to stop your heart from pounding
meditation in my specific case just makes me want to curl up into a ball and start crying if I do it regularly
just the same feeling of psychological resilience you get from alcohol but permanent, thats what I'd like to be different
