Why is reality under the hood so fucking bizarre and alien, a complete clown world so to speak?

We have an universe, which by itself is fucking amazing that we've been able to observe and know anything about, then we have galaxies, stars, black holes and other insane shit going on that we have kind of start to understand. However, then we look at the smallest level of reality and we have first of all, physics that tell everything's a vibration of invisible particles basically, math to explain probability of interaction of certain things happening on that level and if we zoom out and go into our bodies, we see our biology and how our body functions every second of existence is so ridiculously unexplainable the way it looks and makes everything run smoothly. Now we add a sprinkle of computer development and having artificial life explain it better.

Who the fuck is accountable for this, how the fuck does one grasp all of this and not be in complete awe at how ridiculous everything is?