Hey /sci/,

I am a 24-year-old male, and I have severe studying anxiety. I have had to deal with severe abuse all my life (even some recently) and I was thinking that that might have something to do with it. particularly the time that I was forced to write lines in a messy darkroom as a punishment for 14 hours a day and I wasn't let out for two weeks one time. also, I was taught by my stepdad screaming and hitting me if I got questions wrong. I am waiting in line for therapy but I've started school again after 5 years of soul-crushing work, and I need solutions as soon as possible. are there some ways I can teach myself to not be scared of studying?