I had several IQ tests from different parts of the internet, and I always got below the average score.

I have been masturbating for more than 9 years, I have fair grades in academic, I have no achievement in life(no scholar or best award).

My life has tons of flaws like can't read a book, masturbation, sex, pathological lying, and shitposting herein 4chan--these flaws I consider it all as a curse that is hard to get rid of.

I want to have a change in life, but how? I am stubborn to say this cause I don't want to live like this anymore.