>>11516571Optimal is to follow your (STEM) dreams, but if they don't pan out just commit sudoku.
That's preferable to the alternative of picking a shit uninteresting career that results in perpetual boredom, but is perhaps safer and more reliable (like being a lifer at McDonalds).
If you're unwilling to assume some level of risk in your career, and endure some level of competition, then there really isn't much for you. That's why you need to embrace the option of being willing to die if you fail, otherwise your risk aversion will constrain you.