>>11512791(Sincerely) identifying as something you're not is mental illness. Specifically, delusion.
An old man identifying as a toddler is mentally ill.
A white man identifying as a black man is mentally ill.
A fat man identifying as a thin man is mentally ill.
A short man identifying as a tall man is mentally ill.
A draft-dodger identifying as a veteran is mentally ill.
A human identifying as an alien is mentally ill.
A man identifying as a woman is mentally ill.
Keep coping.
You're clearly motivated to persist in your delusion, so you'll just reply with some excuse.