>>11498861I felt like this for about 3 years of my life. I unironically thought I was "gifted" in some way with perfect confidence and cognition. My life experiences honed my outlook such that I always felt grounded and contented, regardless of the circumstances. That special feeling has real life consequences and I genuinely bossed most social encounters and was in all other respects fulfilled. Like permanent flow. It felt like a gift, and I felt impervious. It was glorious. I'm only sharing this as a warning because what I realised towards the end of that experience was my own (and, extrapolating to others, everyone's) true fragility. A lack of appreciation at work from a 1) a temperamental MD and 2) a nonchalant line manager, as well as a very lazy and stressful colleague sat right next to me, and a lacking salary with worsening future prospects meant that I was on a knife's edge for that final year, though I didn't see it then. Compounded with a toxic and destructive relationship, I started spiralling faster than I even realised. After the misery truly set in, regular health problems helped to sustain my depressed state. It's very hard having fallen so far. It's even harder lacking the willingness to climb back up, even if it's within my ability. So, my complete degradation came as a consequence of a compromised support structure, financial striain, and some health problems. The simplest things can destroy you in the subtlest of ways. My warning is: do not fool yourself in thinking that this feeling is a condition of the mind. It is a product of yourself in conjunction (most importantly) with your environment. Even minor circumstantial changes can have a lasting, negative influence on this feeling, and I wouldn't like you to lose it if at all possible.
