>>11451658I had three years of depression and anxiety and 2 month of psychosis when I was between the age of 17 and 20. The psychosis was mostly due to drugs. I have schizophrenic genetics. I threw up before every oral presentations during the 3 years of community college I did, the thing we have before UNI in Canada or maybe just Quebec actually. I was also quite ugly because a bad malocclusion and a recessed jaw. I got 1 gf during those times. She was physically perfect and unironically a 140IQ virgin sperg. On paper perfection for me. But she was only perfect in my ideas. I loved every moment I spent dreaming of her, and hated almost every moment I spent with her because she was the exact opposite of the girl I imagined. Broke up in a really bad way that left me sad and thinking of her everyday for a year. Just couldn't let go of that dream. She was materially perfect and spiritually the most imperfect. How does that go for a lesson heh?
You might laugh and call me a faggot if I think this is hardship
But I worked on myself and am now a chad who always was alpha thanks to picrelated and anti-fragility programming. I don't fear social settings anymore, don't fear talking to anyone and I'm never putting a girl on a pedestal again. I group of women her promiscuous ways and contraceptive-pill-taking disgust me.
1) Girls are all whore, even the virgins. The best advice I can give is never love a girl more than yourself. Girls are supposed to be the one trying to seduce man
2) Life is economic. The only high IQ alphas I know who truly seem genuinely happy are the successful entrepreneurs.
3) If you are an alpha, you either become an ubermensch or you cope. Only a small fraction succeed, so there is a necessity for the rest of them to cope if we want some sort of social stability
4) Play the infinite game. All your life interactions and events will tell you to conform and follow. Do the opposite. There are no rules
5) Modern pessimism is a kikery
