We shoot up for it. Snort for it. Fuck for it. Binge on media for it. I've always been desperate for it. But i don't even know what it is. Here are some examples:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AK3PWHxoT_E
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vrmFA5aHg7Y
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GEwMImXyODM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nHiAL0C6stE
I've been desperate my whole life to understand anything and i understand nothing except my desperation for meaning and value. Chemicals. Feelings. I want to feel things that are important to me or something. That's all i fucking have.