I'm just human scum, yes, I've deluded myself for too long, I was just trying to cope with the fact that I'm actual trash. All those dreams I had about myself, pff, what a joke they were, we all get into college believing we will ne Mozart, but after 4 years of failures you realize you're actually Salieri. Go after your dreams, never give up, that's a joke, all of it, a joke sustained by society's naiveness, we all like to believe that we're Mozart, right? But we all know that there can't be billions of Mozarts, we're all trash but we try to delude ourselves and others into thinking otherwise, that's so messed up, that's the most cruel thing in society, we are molded into thinking that our hard work will surpass any adversity, but it won't, the world crushes everything you believe in and the funniest thing is that not single person cares about it, no one gives a fuck about me and my failures even though they were responsible for it. They destroyed me and now I can't do anything, I can only accept that this is how society works, it tricks you, it destroys you and then it throws you into the trash can and no one cares, they're all too busy 'pursuing' their dreams, little do they know that their destiny will be the same as mine, and you know why? Because no one wants to change the system, because people are too individualistic, because they can't see the big picture of the world, they can only see the small portrait of their lives. When I was 15 I used to dream about proving a millenium problem, haha, society really fucked me up from the start.
