is anyone else dependent on LSD to maintain interest in science and math?
i'm a chemistry major. every semester of university that i did well in, i took LSD near the beginning of the semester.
even taking LSD once will make me passionate in math and science for about 4 months after the dose. the passion is strong enough that i can see a powerpoint slide once and remember everything and ace an exam without studying. but it slowly wears off, and after 4 months i lose interest in science/math, and slip into procrastination and dicking around on youtube/reddit.
this is my first semester that I haven't done LSD, and it's showing, and it's not good. i'm slacking off badly, and considering suicide because i'm not hard-working enough to live. my dad would say something stupid like "you need to study hard so you can get a high paying job and find a nice girl one day".
if i don't have passion, it won't stick in my brain no matter what. i'm the kind of student where i either see it once and memorize it instantly (if i find it interesting), or write it down 100 times and never have it stick.
It sucks that i have to take legal risks to do well in university. i may get the chance to do LSD soon. Before i get too far into this semester and screw up grad school chances.
i'm a chemistry major. every semester of university that i did well in, i took LSD near the beginning of the semester.
even taking LSD once will make me passionate in math and science for about 4 months after the dose. the passion is strong enough that i can see a powerpoint slide once and remember everything and ace an exam without studying. but it slowly wears off, and after 4 months i lose interest in science/math, and slip into procrastination and dicking around on youtube/reddit.
this is my first semester that I haven't done LSD, and it's showing, and it's not good. i'm slacking off badly, and considering suicide because i'm not hard-working enough to live. my dad would say something stupid like "you need to study hard so you can get a high paying job and find a nice girl one day".
if i don't have passion, it won't stick in my brain no matter what. i'm the kind of student where i either see it once and memorize it instantly (if i find it interesting), or write it down 100 times and never have it stick.
It sucks that i have to take legal risks to do well in university. i may get the chance to do LSD soon. Before i get too far into this semester and screw up grad school chances.
