how did you get over the fact that most of science culture is onions? every time i walk into a lecture I see "I fucking love science" on people's laptop screens, women with purple hair, people with "kawai" drawings of famous physicists on their laptops, and endless soys making sci-fi references.
I just can't get over it, even though I love the actual material. Every time I interact with science I see basedjaks. Combine that with all the annoying bureaucratic things around publishing and getting higher in academia, I don't know if I have a future in science.