During my teenage years I had an obsession for amateur astronomy that helped me grow into a healthy adult by impressing upon me what I must describe as a religious commitment to the values of intellectual discipline that are behind science. The most valuable commitment it inspired was a commitment towards self-honesty and self-criticism; scientific skepticism first and foremost starts with one's own ideas and perceptions of the world. Becoming familiar and understanding the night sky on such a depth gave me a tremendous sense of demonstrated agency during the critical period where I was becoming an adult and learning such agency.

A whole host of other amateur sciences can offer the same experience: geology, biology, meterology, computer science, physics, engineering. If you're bored shitless with the world and are sick of all the fake shit that makes you angry, consider pursuing any amateur science that appeals to you in particular. In such an engagement you will find meaningful, authentic connections with the world around you in a direct and tangible way. Perhaps experiencing such a thing will lead you towards more general fulfillment in your life. Why not try, if one doesn't have anything better to do?