>>11167281(Part 2)
Today, I basically lost my shit.
I smashed shit and smashed shit and threw stuff out a window into the garage, scared the shit out of my younger sister, was basically in a rage until I tired myself out three hours later.
Father came home, saw what happened, asked me why. I broke down, crying, sobbing, and he came over and hugged me. Forgave me.
We picked up the pieces for a while and then got some food. He told mom what happened and she hugged me when she got home, forgave me as well.
We ate dinner as a family and my sister even came down, forgave me too, enjoyed the meal.
Anon, you’ve got to have hope. Whether you want to die because you hate yourself or feel others are holding you down, if you’ve had a hard life and no one’s really lent you a hand, if there’s something else that’s driven you here, look, you’ve got to have hope. I was ready to get in my car and drive it 100mph into a Jersey barrier at 6 today, by 7 I felt life had changed, by 8 my life felt like it had turned a point after almost a decade of recovering from a terrible childhood.
I don’t know when what where or how a change will come, I spent years feeling like I was circling the drain, but in a single day my life feels like it has turned around.
You’ve got to hold in there anon. God bless you and I hope things turn around soon
