>>11147956Sounds like you've done the math.
That said, read. Get a sense of what is.
Reading men, from past ages, will grant you perspective. It may grant you peace.
Understanding one's mind/emotions are key to happiness.
Try this: Hayek, Road to Serfdom. There are other books, Ninety-Three, Leviathon, Atlas Shrugged. Stay away from most fiction.