>>11145580I agree, but it's not that I never put my skills to test, it's just that I use only those few skills I need at work for the specific areas I need.
The reason I pass as a genius is because I can do pretty much everything and I'm very fast at learning new skills to an average level.
Note that "average skill" seems to be actually be rare to encounter in the real world, I've only met very few people who I could call competent.
Most of the people we hired were goddamn scrubs with barely passable abilities despite being 30+.
In general I put my skills to test until I reach a decent level, but then it stops being interesting and I switch to something else, and a new cycle beings.
I don't know if you know that feeling, but it's like when you finally manage to play that complicated solo on the guitar and suddenly the magic is gone and all you taste subsequently is mere emptyness.
I keep losing all motivation once I finally start getting good results.
I've tried painting, drawing, composing music, guitar, modeling (irl and 3d), writing, cooking, singing, acting, sysadmining, programming, 100m run, swimming, and others.
I'm good enough at a lot of stuff but I just can't defeat the apathy. It must be OCDs that drive me to learn new skills, because I feel like a fucking robot 99% of the time.
I don't even know how to spend my money because I have forgotten how to have fun and socializing with normies who talk about mundane things is most aggravating thing. Throw at them some advanced IT topic or quantum theory or anything remotely interesting and they stare at you like they just got a lobotomy.
I don't understand how I got where I am, I used to be a shitty brat who wanted fame and glory, with lot of motivation yet lacking in skills.
Now I'm the complete opposite, I got skills, I got confidence, I got knowledge but I have lost all drive.
Also I feel that getting rich may be a hindrance, relative begging for money, burglars, finances and investments.
