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I think a huge thing with my ADHD is doing things to increase the bicamerality of my mind. That is, intentionally creating and sustaining an inner world of emotion and thought which directs our behaviour in a productive direction.
I find myself constantly seeking and becoming lost in external stimulation, such that my inner thoughts and emotions become directly and wholly immersed in my sense perceptions and external environment. This lack of inner reflection and inner experience to counterbalance my drive for immersion into external stimulation leads to a lot of wasted time, spent on things I know I don't even care about in foresight or hindsight. 4chan, YouTube, reddit, etc. are prime examples of these. External sources of information which excite my mind with thoughts and emotions, yet lead to be becoming tied to patterns of thought which are entirely unproductive and procrastinative.
I must do some inner physiological mindful meditation / introspection to get our of my mind and into my emotional body, which I spent time reflecting on and processing to find balance within myself, including in the intuitive and moral sense of what I would better spend my time doing. The mind cannot be trusted as a decision making machine if you have ADHD. The truth is the ADHD mind is a stimulation machine, not an entirely rational one. Instead of using our mind to do what is rational, we do what is stimulating (dopamine producing) in a direction tangential to what is rational, which leads not to productivity towards ones goals, but instead endless hours of procrastination. To behave in a way that is truely rational and moral, we must turn off our mind for an extended period of time (15-20 minutes or more), and reflect on how we feel, how our behaviour is making us feel, and what moral actions are emotional body is indicating we should take. This way, the inner experience becomes the driving force of our behaviour, not our external environment.
