I just want to drop out of life and study as many things as I can. I wouldnt mind staying in academia for as long as possible. Many people these days seem to shun it. I would do it even with debt. I have nothing much else to live for but the pursuit of truth and knowledge for it is enlightening in so many ways. The studying of science, math, philosophy. I don’t see the point of life but to spend it chasing the possible meanings existence and the nature of all of reality’s processes. Academic rigor is the soul of life. Careers that don’t involve these passions and forms of enslavement. Specialization is limiting the potential for a fully encompassed body of knowledge. Why is intellectualism so demonized now?