I know there is already a thread related to OCD, but didn't want to hijack it.

I have OCD. I've been on and off SSRI's and benzos and various other meds since I was a teenager. I'm now in my early twenties.

I've tried a slew of medicines (various SSRI's, tricyclic/SSRI combo, benzos only, cannabis, CBD).

I have noticed improvement with quite a few of these things that I've tried, but SSRI's seem to blunt me emotionally, the tricyclics resulted in a loss of mental acuity/focus, and the benzodiazepines also make me mentally sluggish. The marijuana seemed to work wonders for some time (I felt like a completely different person while high) but soon came intense paranoia and near-psychotic episodes.

I'm not sure if these were true psychoses or just obsessions that were amplified by the drug.

Regardless, there were times when I immensely enjoyed smoking marijuana.

I've noticed as I slowly trudge into my twenties that my affect has become significantly flattened. Many things seem to have lost there luster. I often feel as if I'm trapped in some sort of deep rut psychologically.

So what are my options here? Any new treatments on the horizon or things I haven't heard about that could be of use to me? I'm quite terrified of trying hallucinogens due to my extensive experience with severe, crippling anxiety.