I feel something fuzzy in my brain. It could be from the loneliness that I've been experiencing since I got laid off as a peer tutor last week during the start of my final semester at community college.

I know I won't make this sound like an /adv/ post even when it does but all my life I feel as though I've been aimless and filled with emptiness/loneliness and without direction, also. Math seemed to be the only thing that put my mind on focus yet, although I don't want to fall under the trap of saying that I'm not good at it, I never had the right guidance from my life. The only reason why I even have this going for me is because I can't imagine any other career path being open to me. The sciences assume themselves too much, too many philosophers give out their life stories instead of what they actually think on what life is or what its supposed to be, and business just isn't doing it for me.

I feel like I owe it to my high school freshman-year math teacher for partly giving me the inspiration of doing this, especially since he was generally very strict to the class and I to the point that one kid just stood up and yelled at him and the teacher paid back in due kind.

Now, it's not so much that I'm not good at math, but rather where my skills in Math lie in and whether or not I'll be given credibility of my own existence and being (see Heidegger for details) and finding my potential.

I'm sorry if this post was very long. I don't know what to do now that I'm so alone.