>>10947370There is considerable cope in your post. Excercise has far more positive chronic health impacts than negative ones that either you have a completely unusual body or and this is the most likely, you were completely impatient and irrealistic about what to expect.
I'm the guy you're replying to. First excercise I did was going on a run with a psych group. It was led by a guy with whay I assume were deep problems, we didn't talk about the psych stuff.
I was outrun by literally everyone, including a middle aged woman that never excercised. I think I didn't run farther than 800 meters that time, not fast either.
The guy came up to me afterwards and in his poor attempt to help he said
>maybe you run badly because you're fatI felt so lucky. It may sound strange, but out of the depression and all my problems, the one thing I didn't worry about was my weight. And yes, I had gotten fat during my depression. I think if he had said "maybe you did badly because you're mentally weak" or any of another 100 things, I would have shattered and never excercised again. But he hit the one thing that was like a reverse achilles heel for me. I just laughed because I knew how terrible the comment could hit someone else.
This thing you're mentioning about building muscle, it's the wrong attitude. It's like pointing to a model in a magazine, saying you want to same haircut. You're never going to look like arnold schwarzenegger or vince gorroda. The point of excercise, particularly for those with depression, shouldn't be some perfection image of muscles. The point is to get in a cycle of receiving endorphins and recovery and new excercise. The point is finding excercise you like doing.
For example, lifting weights is used as the kind of perfect excercise and in a time for results efficiency, there's a point to it. But it also has some risk because the only point of the excercise is the result, whereas for many other sports, it's actually fun by itself.
