>>10854857Omg I thought I was alone. Never found a word for this.
When you say visualize, I assume you mean literally, into the actual field of vision, as a tangible visible object.
I never tried edibles or shrooms until around age 26. I did some experiments meditating on them, alone in the dark, with music, for hours. Mind you I had previous sober breakthroughs of a "yogic" or chi nature.
One of my tests involved observing the static and patterns on the inside of my eyelids. I realized that those sub-visuals aren't physical at all--they exist purely within the visual cortex nerves. It's like having a video of static noise overlayed over the video feed from your eyes, but with the opacity turned down.
I realized that all images I see take place inside the brain, not the eye, but are pulsed in sync with the eye, receiving. Thus I postulated signals should be able to be sent along the nerve as well as received. So I worked hard, concentrated, and found i could influence the behavior of the static behind my eyelids. With drugs, then later without, I found I could work my way up to the shapes of numbers, letters, and platonic solids. They very nearly looked real enough to touch.
However I got set back 6 months ago. I rarely drink alcohol, but at a party got super drunk and combined with an edible (terrible idea). Worst hangover of my life. Ever since then the visuals have been fuzzy and harder to control. I think I damaged something.
