>>10849814be me
be young and bullet proof , martial artist ho wrang do black belt 3rd degree and shaolin long fist achieved black sash first degree,
be 6,1 and a lean 200 lbs
slim, hot and shockingly fast reflexes
mind mannered and nothing ever got to me.
then ,
father has a heart attack , under terrible stress dad is gonna die, move back home to help take care of him and relearn why I love my dad , well dad is overweight ,
and there are no good martial arts schools where he lives , all bullshit pay for belt ranks and shitty teachings of fighting is good and violence solves all your problems , instead of
teaching your body to do what you tell it to do...
start going to a heavy gym , monsters abound ,
okay not a big deal at first , but slowly it begin to work into your psych , MORE WEIGHT .. LIFT MORE ..work out partner is doing roids , ask him to get me a cycle
HOLY FUCK I AM A GOD !!!
weight and strength gains
want more of this feeling do another cycle
again HOLY FUCK this is fantastic feeling , gain more muscle weight and strength
gain nearly 60 pounds in 3 years
a raw 260 pound silver back gorilla
dad suffers a vertigo episode fall down a small flight of stairs .. don't even hear him , but turn around and see him face down in the street
scream DAD !!!!! and run over to him grab him and his jacket and stand him straight up literally lifting him off the ground
okay , something to think about : dad weighs 330 pounds
continue to lift because now I am geting the accolades I used to get from girls when I was slim and lean
but now I am getting them from the gym, but it does not register I am getting them from guys at the gym
like LIFT MORE , and LIFT HEAVY,ADD MORE WEIGHT and YA YOUR A MONSTER , ect.
after 10 years of lifting I realise that not only did my mind change so did my perception of self
I went from being a fucking street racer fast and agile to a god damned slow moving bulldozer and just about as useless
all because of steroids
