>as a kid I was always pure shit at math, always went through one ear and out the other
>brother has always been the naturally talented one
>mid-adolescence I gave another serious go at it and ended up developing a real passion for it after hard work
>everytime I think of maybe having a chance at making it in research, I remember how bad I was naturally and how I still struggle to understand a lot of concepts as easily as most of my peers in my prestigious uni
>get extremely disheartened and cry
I just wanted to make it... I want to discover and learn for the rest of my life, but my brain won’t let me. I can’t fucking live without it. I can’t help but think how much better my brother would be in this position.