For about six months I heavily abused Benadryl to get high. I was staying in this shitty mental health facility where we were forced to socialize (despite my anxiety), and to cope I would just get wasted on benadryl. Stupid idea. I would take anywhere from 16-32 pills at a time. Insane behavior, I know. I regret it more than anything I've ever done. Now I feel retarded. Like my IQ has decreased. Less creative. Like I've been lobotomized or something. I know it disrupts acetycholine and fucks with your memory, but what else are the consequences of this? Will my brain ever go back to normal? Will ECT help?