>>4042555>How do you stop unwanted homosexual feelings that are there due to my childhoodThis is a very complicated issue that requires one to search inward and ask why these feelings are there and what can be done to mediate or manage these feelings from not taking control of your impulses. Unwanted sexual feelings - be they homosexual or heterosexual - are the libido acting out which in turn causes the mind to become less rational. This isn't to say sex is bad or immoral, rather, that "coomer brain" is very much real and is the sexualized version of brain rot.
>a friend of mine at the time was just starting horny age, and he asked me to suck him. I had no idea what it was or what i was doing, and I'm pretty sure that's why now i have a thing for guys that are friends masturbating together and a bunch of other stuff that keeps growing with time, and I don't know how to stop itIt sounds to me like you were violated without your consent. To what extent I can't say for sure. You didn't have full knowledge of the act and "had no idea" what you were doing, yet you still performed said act. It'd be one thing if both of you were mutually curious about sex, but from my perspective it sounds like your friend was more interested in taking advantage of you while you were impressionable and vulnerable. The first thing you need to do is to not blame yourself for your thoughts or desires. They're a result of these acts that were imposed on you as a child and I don't think you wanted that to happen. My best advice is to see if you can reorient your desires into a more platonic sensibility. Take this for example:
>i have a thing for guys that are friends masturbating together and a bunch of other stuffNow turn this into its opposite. You can still desire or love the beauty of male camaraderie without it being pornographic. So instead of male friends masturbating, turn those thoughts into something different (i.e. friends playing sports, sharing secrets, etc)
