jesus fucking christ lmao, this is all the kind of shit i despise
men aren't beautiful. there is nothing beautiful about being hairy, having facial hair, rough skin, or smelling like shit. i don't want to feel anybody's beard against my face, not even my own. muscles are gross. and to be honest the way you talk about men creeps me the fuck out, like you see us as objects that have to be strong and tough and not as actual human beings. but that seems quite typical of androphiles.
that being said, i don't want to be a woman either. they look better than men, but i don't want to look like a woman, i want to look like me but without testosterone poisoning. i also don't want to change the way i act, dress, refer to myself, etc. i've never even met a woman i wanted to be friends with, they are completely unrelatable to me.
i don't want to be strong and "magnificent" (more like dangerous and disgusting) and powerful, i want to be me, and that is not me. it never has been and it never will be. every time i've started to gain muscles it's caused me mental anguish, which is why i've completely sworn off any form of manual labor as a job or career. every additional hair on my face causes me mental anguish. every hair i lose on my head causes me mental anguish. every hair that grows on my body causes me mental anguish. my facial hair shadow causes me mental anguish.
asking me to embrace that is like asking a torture victim to embrace being waterboarded. i can't even delude myself into it, and i've gotten good at deluding myself to make my life more bearable. but that is a bridge way the fuck too far. i'd rather die than be masculine. fuck you and every single person whose response to my suffering is "broooo you're so strong and powerful cmon bro just lift and be a disgusting manly man bro come on bro bro bro bro bro"
fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you get prostate cancer you fucking asswipe