r9k is full of trannies and annoying, bitter incels though. they lack an appreciation for cute boys. people on /cm/ all share this appreciation>>3385723
only one woman was ever interested me and i fucked her just so i could say i lost my virginity (in hindsight, what a meaningless thing virginity is). i didn't enjoy it, to say the least. the only other person who has ever shown interest in me in my entire life was a bisexual guy at a bar, but he was completely unattractive to me and i'm still closeted so that was a no-go.
at this point though i'm basically asexual because i have no desire to pursue a relationship with anybody in real life (especially not a woman, even though i find them more attractive sexually than i do men - i'm not into them romantically, whereas i am with men, though). i have my fictional boyfriend, and my real-life friends, and that's enough for me.>>3385747>I know I shouldn't be so in love with him, that it's escapism to get away from how miserable I am with my actual life, but I don't want to give up the one thing that consistently makes me happy just because it's a fantasy that can never be real. I don't think it's hurting anything for me to be this way. It's not like I can't distinguish between fiction and reality or anything. I know he's not real. It's just a nice dream.
hey, that's exactly how i feel. what's important is that he makes you happy. even though he isn't real, your love for him is. and it's certainly not the least healthy method of escapism; at least it's not drugs or something.
that's what i used as my main method of escapism before i discovered and accepted my love for Kyle. i'm not exactly sober (i take a prescription antidepressant and have klonopin prescribed to me, but i avoid taking it and smoke weed to deal with my anxiety instead) but i don't want to drop acid every couple of days anymore.
now i just think about Kyle if i wanna be happy. its awesome. i love him so much.