>>3190580As a depressed boy with a bf just know that you've got absolutely nothing to do with him doing it
It's an internal struggle and sometimes it's not winnable
I'm sure you made things a lot easier on him though, so you should at least try thinking of it that way. It was inevitable probably, but you made things better for him.
You shouldn't forgive yourself because it's not your fault. It's not about you saving him but him saving himself and he couldn't in the end. But you tried. You should be glad you got the chance.