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>>3145036the stereotypes are what eventually forced me to break away from bl, but for the exact opposite reason. i was--and still am, though to a lesser degree--an extremely vulnerable confused person, with very little bravery to push me outside a turtle shell.
i kept believing that in sitting around and doing nothing, eventually, some strong man with hard, caring muscles would conviniently swoop in and make my life a lot happier, just as in bl.
two issues with that: firstly, that premise doesn't exist irl--where some boundless, loving, angelic figure comes out of nowhere into your life without you doing anything to help on your end; and what's more, that idea of a relationship is fucked up even it were to exist. hi, i'm anon! i'm a depressed suburban asshole! i never try, and accept all of my bad thoughts, and there's only one thing in this whole world that makes my life worth living: my hunky seme boyfriend. he's basically jesus. he is the answer to all my problems and i depend on him like fucking life support.
so yeah. bl is a wonderful fantasy. but it's only that.
