>>3000025I never used it to masturbate, and even nowadays I barely get aroused by it (neither visual or written form).
It has to be really good to do that, and even then it's not enough for fapping.
However, I also started pretty early with the smut, I think I was also around the 12 year old mark.
In the beginning it was this thrill of the forbidden because nobody in my family knew I had such things or read fanfictions online.
I gathered a lot of manga and read a shitton of fanfiction, downloaded scanlations and so on.
In the early beginning it was het stuff, later yaoi only.
Started the gay front with Bronze/Zetsuai, which was pretty vanilla compared to today, and I was immediately hooked.
I also really liked the art, the stories and characters...nowadays I can't stand most of it because I'm tired of the "everyone in this universe is gay and the plot is ridiculous but at least they fuck, yay!" stories.
My characters and stories were heavily influenced by this too and after I got sick of this I changed a lot of them too.
It's the same with regular anime/manga, I just can't watch it anymore.
I still like the style itself and follow some artists who aren't into realism but the shows itself? The community? Nope.
But I still enjoy good drawings and hey, it's two good looking guys making out, how could I not like that?
It's like guys who enjoy looking at pretty lesbians making out.
