>>3055416>Shinji seems more like he’d overcompensate for his lack of masculinity by refusing to bottom.See, you say that, but that’s what makes Shinji bottoming even hotter for me. All Shinji has ever wanted was to be loved, and he believes this “love” is gained from exhibiting traditionally masculine traits (piloting the Eva, not running away, being more like his father, being dominant, etc). Shinji suffers because he doesn’t meet this standard (he likes cooking and cleaning, he’s passive, he struggles with taking initiative). It’s no secret that Shinji having daddy issues and complicated relationships with women all warp his view of masculinity, making him believe you have to be masculine to be loved as a man. Also, Shinji suffers from the hedgehog’s dilemma, and he can’t connect with others out of fear and insecurity. He believes that if he forces himself to be masculine, then his suffering would go away. So, the fact that Shinji spends his entire life building a masculine persona of himself but immediately reverts back to his true submissive self the moment he meets Kaworu makes my dick diamonds.
But eh, different strokes for different folks.
