I don't know who or what to believe anymore. I recently discovered all of my friends talk shit about me behind my back and say horrible things, and they all dislike me but just hide it.

I found out by getting into my friend's facebook by circumstances I won't mention, and I stumbled upon a conversation between by friend 1 and friend 2; I discovered years of resentment and hate towards me, and every time I thought they couldn't make something or said something, it was because they didn't like me and blew me off. Then I checked with conversations between other close friends - pretty much the same; mockery and abuse.

I don't know who my friends are anymore and I feel so hopeless - my close friends who I adored are slimy and toxic, and I feel like I have no friends left.

What do I do, /b/? I'm so tempted to kill myself (not just over this, other things that are shit in my life) but I can't bear the thought of upsetting my family and passing on the pain to them