When I was pretty young I found my dad's porn several times. He was very sloppy about it. And he often had bdsm stuff. And one time I found a magazine called "Shemale Jail." I'm pretty sure that's why I am like this. I don't know if he's gay or bisexual or what. It ever came up so I assume he is just a pervert. I found something similar recently on dvd. I don't remember what it was called. He's old, he just left it out on his dresser.
I had the internet from a pretty young age, like 11 or 12 maybe. I remember beating off to this hentai called "cool devices" which was straight. There was a girl in an armbinder which I had never seen before. From that point on porn was all100% bondage for me.
One time I was downloading a bunch of random porn on kazaa or limewire or whatever it was and there was a picture of a guy tied up and being lowered down, implying that this phallic object below him was going to get pushed into his ass.
It's that feeling of novelty that I'm addicted to. Something that I hadn't considered before. A new way to violate a person. And on top of that, I always beat off to women being tied up, but i wasn't imagining myself fucking them. well by switching to gay stuff or tranny stuff, now I can fantasize that that's me getting tied up and fucked. When I found out about prostate orgasms, I got obsessed with the idea and a chastity fetish came with it.
And there's something very erotic about gross things that I know are wrong. Like sweaty skin, hairless body to body contact sticking together and slapping, licking an armpit or a foot.
I wish I could stop being like this but it feels good. I'm definitely deeply addicted.
