>>2902525I think it might be because I experienced a lot of domestic violence growing up, but didn't have a good outlet for it. Reading about someone else being weak, helpless and afraid for once makes me feel good but also horrible when I think about it for too long. I feel sick even thinking about someone loving me in a sexual way so someone hating it is the only way I can fantasise and get off. I've tried to enjoy vanilla stuff too, but I can't. I'm just a full on sexual sadist who gets off to nearly all types of violence and watches action movies for all the wrong reasons. Maybe I'll be okay one day, but until then, I'll just enjoy myself with fictional characters I don't have to feel bad for.
The main reason I mostly consume drawn hentai is that it feels more removed from reality.
