HOW DO I CONTROL MY SCHIZOPHRENIA /SCI/? PLEASE DON'T IGNORE MY POST.

I BASICALLY HAVE INVOLUNTARY MOVEMENTS ,,, LIKE I GROWL ,,, SMILE LIKE CRAZY ,,, HAVE TIKS ,,, AND SAY RANDOM WORDS MOSTLY SWEARS. I DON'T KNOW WHY IT HAPPENS. WHEN IT DOES IT FEELS LIKE I'M SAYING IT ,,, OR SOMETHING ELSE INSIDE ME AND IT'S TAKEN OVER MY BODY. WHEN IT ENDS AFTER A FEW SECONDS. I CALM DOWN.
I WANT TO IGNORE IT BUT I CAN'T AS I FREAK OUT AND HAVE UNBASED BELIEFS OR THOUGHTS LIKE IF I DON'T TAKE A STEP BACK OR REGRET WHAT I SAID ,,, I'LL BE IN ANOTHER DIMENSION FOREVER.
I KNOW IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE BUT IT'S TOO STRONG TO IGNORE ,,, EVEN WHEN THINKING RATIONALLY.
I HAAAATE THIS THING INSIDE ME ,,, IT WANTS ME TO SUFFER BUT NOT KILL MYSELF ,,, AS IT'S SCARED OF DEATH BUT AT THE SAME IT FEELS LIKE ME.
I RAN OUT OF REXULTI ,,, AND I DON'T HAVE MONEY FOR MORE.
IT'S PRESCRIPTION TOO SO I NEED TO SEE A PSYCHIATRIST TO GET SOME WHICH COSTS MORE MOOOOONEY.
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP.
I FOUND THE FOLLOWING LIST OF MEDS:
0.5mg P21
12mg IDRA-21 intravenously
5mg PRL-8-53 intranasal
20mg NSI-189 intravenously
40mg trans-ISRIB-A17 intraspinal
15mg J-147 intraspinal
1mg semax
4mg brexpiprazole
10mg aripiprazole
20mg lutein xeanthine intraspinal (rubidium chloride solution)
0.15g RGPU-95 intraspinal
516ml Ar-Turmerone
11mg Risperidone
45.5µg GSK2656157 intraspinal
120mg Vorinostat intravenously
40mg tranylcypromine buccal
8+4mg reboxetine
14mg JDTic
75mg bicalutamide
2.5mg selegiline buccal
12.5mg amisulpride
1.5mg naltrexone (ULDN)
10mg ramipril
14mg Igf1-lr3
120mg Vorinostat intravenously
40mg tranylcypromine buccal
8+4mg reboxetine
14mg JDTic
75mg bicalutamide
2.5mg selegiline buccal
12.5mg amisulpride
1.5mg naltrexone (ULDN)
10mg ramipril
14mg Igf1-lr3
WILL THIS HELP???