I've cracked the code /sci/, after doing some psychoanalysis with my own mind in which I am fully aware that I possess depression and anxiety for the past 4 years that childhood is the key element of my suffering.

It all started when my own past memories inflict psychological damage that is beyond any mere shame.

I have hated such feeling but memories being memories, it is quite a repetitive experience that will haunt you once every week.

Now we have fact #1, a repulsive reaction to memories.

After that, my behavior became more passive and little to no confidence to each decision I have made.

Fact #2, character weakens due to distrust to one's memories.

Now this is where tragedy befalls.

Memories are important to succeed in tasks and so does confidence in action so what happens when we become incompetent of such? Bad decisions.

Every year there are decisions that I've made that caused long term damages such as relationships, health and destruction of equipments.

Alright lets wrap it all up by leaving some trivial details.

The point here is that depression is caused by distrust of one's memories and such condition is severe enough to destroy one's life.

The principle I inquired here is that:

The distrust of one's memories the elements of one's character is fatal enough to destablize the entire personality of a person.

The only cure is to rebuild what I have lost and reconnect with my past.

Thats all and thanks for listening to a stranger online and why post it here you ask?

4chan is has people like me whose lifestyle is self-destructive so I hope others could atleast realize why they became such product.

Assuming that this principle is true of course but if I am incorrect, I hope to meet criticism that refute my central point not just ad hominem.