>>14320326oh, you're saying that you've always copied that idea of an intelligent person, but only now that you've copied the "studious" aspect are you beginning to notice real changes. the change is indicative of something, but i don't know enough about you to say what. maybe going to art exhibits made you feel like a pseud and actually studying is what keeps you going, maybe you just went through a change in your life and you're shuffling around your ideas and habits. introspect and find out yourself. as long as you are accomplishing what you want to do, it doesn't matter what you spend your free time on, in other words, don't worry about anime being a waste of time, worry about not knowing what you want to accomplish.
