> Read
> See stories about Godel, Euler, Wiles, etc
> Feel the Pull of Passion, it's just something that tells you, "you need to be be like that," it's the same feeling I got years ago, when I...
> When I..
> Start going to the library on Saturdays to learn math
> Follow some college's assigned reading schedule
> Start doodling while thinking about problem
> When I...
> Years ago, when I decided I needed to do art
> After seeing what it was possible to create, I dove in and started practicing art.
> It is everything to me, when I look around I see things through the lens of someone trying to draw them
> At one point, I wished my mind and arm would be made into a machine to make art nonstop
> It's the only thing I'm good at, besides being a little intelligent
> The unthinkable: I start falling out with art
> I just don't like it any more. I once thought it was the only thing worth doing, now I see it's just nothing.
> The same thing is going to happen if I pursue math, or science, or any intellectual pursuit
> Worse, it won't matter. To be good at what I want to do you have to utilize your childhood years.
This is how it happens. I came so close, but I was a few rolls of the dice away, and now I am going to be swept away with the chaff. I just want to truly achieve.
I don't care about how this thread makes anyone feel or what happens to it. I hate this board and most people on it.