I'm an aspiring artist and I was never good at mathematics in highschool but my teachers were always retards anyway.
For a couple of years now I've been itching to learn but I always come up with an excuse and I'm done with those.
What are some sci approved books to learn the basics again and start making a path towards more complex math.
To make things clear; I'd say I'm the most interested in the pure philosophical aspects of math rather than the practical aspects that you would find in stuff like engineering.
I don't mind listening to conferences or classes as well if there's any recomendations of that sort.