Why does it feel like the older I get the harder it becomes to express my ideas/thoughts/feelings? It feels like my verbal memory is getting worse with time. Now at 25 and my vocabulary/lexicon is that of what I had when I was in tenth grade.

I always fucking struggle to communicate what I'm thinking or feeling. Even as I composed this post I'm kept losing track of what I want to describe or state and the words needed to use in doing so. I cannot find/know which descriptive and impacting words to use anymore, or how to structure my statements or arguments. It's like this massive brain fog where I have a chronic case of 'word finding difficulties.' I've gotten so much fucking slower when speaking to other people, because I can never engage in a normal conversation using previously 'learned' either casual/common/technical terms depending on the context. This is killing my confidence and credibility.

It is as if my mind lags as I search for the words that I can't get out. What my heart feels and/or what my mind thinks is what I cannot effectively put into tangible meaning/expressions/statements. I also find it more harder to learn/remember new words and their definition compared to when I was around 18-20. Used to be a double major, so I regularly had plenty of textbook terms that I learned frequently that I would not for the life of me be able to relearn or memorize again.

Does anyone else experience what I'm describing here -- this chronic aphasia or "word finding difficulty" -- e.g. having issues using language in both an accurate and intelligent manner, and being able to apply it when needing to construct impressive/superior/compelling arguments in debates or just to keep a conversation going or the words on a page flowing? It took me about two hours to write and edit this post so this is basically all the problems mentioned above impeding me.

Hoping one of you neuropsych or other IQ savvy anons here can try to help me resolve what the fuck is going on.