What the fuck is the cause?
Whenever I stop studying for a longer period of time, I start to have stomach pain. I shit 3 times a day and my poop is yellow instead of brown (I have Gilbert's Syndrome so maybe my bilirubin levels go through the roof?). Am I fucking addicted to studying to such an extent that the moment I take my off off this I remind myself that I live in a material, physical world indifferent to the existence or non-existence of humans and not discernable to the senseless will to live?
I am not joking. How the fuck do I deal with this issue? I also begin to consume honey outside of adding it to my breakfast. I just fucking open the jar and eat it straight out. Has math made me mentally ill?
Whenever I stop studying for a longer period of time, I start to have stomach pain. I shit 3 times a day and my poop is yellow instead of brown (I have Gilbert's Syndrome so maybe my bilirubin levels go through the roof?). Am I fucking addicted to studying to such an extent that the moment I take my off off this I remind myself that I live in a material, physical world indifferent to the existence or non-existence of humans and not discernable to the senseless will to live?
I am not joking. How the fuck do I deal with this issue? I also begin to consume honey outside of adding it to my breakfast. I just fucking open the jar and eat it straight out. Has math made me mentally ill?
