>>14227105take this anecdote with as much skepticism as you like, but I’ve had dissociative episodes meditating on death, or more appropriately, on the finitude and strangeness of being alive at all. these episodes have given way to progressively more severe hallucinations (not at all drug-induced) that I felt were revelations from God. among the revelations were precognitions of mundane events, sometimes years in advance, as well as a variety of metaphysical concepts that I had not encountered anywhere externally prior to the revelation, only to discover the very same ideas existing in history/written about by folks far more intelligent than I. an example of the latter is the revelation that essentially the entire universe is recreated infinitely, almost exactly the same except for differences that are infinitesimally slight on a cosmic scale but potentially catastrophic on a human scale. you haven’t lived as anyone different in history, nor will you, you’re always “you” in every iteration with the exception of the aforementioned differences (you might experience a life-altering accident in one life, or win the lottery in another, or be miscarried or live to 100). this same idea was posited by Nietzsche among other philosophers
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eternal_returnI’ve tried exploring how one might achieve an exit from this cycle ala Buddhist nirvana, but so far my meditation seems to imply that the concept of nirvana is the same kind of anti-nihilist copium that Abrahamic belief in eternal paradise after death is. however, there might be something that affects the way you experience the break between copies of the universe
>tl;dryes I’m a schizo, no I will not take meds
