>>14179819To expand on this, I was such a smart kid that it made me extremely oblivious and dumb. I would gallop around my house in circles for up to one or two hours just to enjoy my own thoughts, in kindergarten I came to the conclusion that deep emotions are not meant to be expressed openly since people got upset by my excessive exuberance.
This resulted in me becoming an extremely reserved person and evolved into a weird OCD where even seeing others express strong emotions bothered me; my eyes would water when I heard other people express themselves through singing, I remember a specific case in 7th grade of a boy and girl duo singing Fallout Boy for our english class which got me particularly bad.
Being smart, I managed to get over it completely, but the OCD kept coming back in different forms, by junior year I got it down to a very manageable level where I actually felt somewhat comfortable in school by essentially brainwashing myself like an actor does getting ready for a role and consequently I just lost the ability to pay attention to things I wasn't interested in and lost my punctuality too. Only my grades in arithmetic classes such as math dropped after this since with non-arithmetic classes for some reason I would absorb all the information being taught without paying any attention.
Started taking amphetamine for ADHD and it completely attenuates my OCD and lets me focus like I could when my OCD was severe, but it only lasts 4 hours and I get strong OCD pangs when it wears off.
Main difference between me and anyone here is that I sound like a clinically insane person. That one dude with like 180 IQ is living out in the boonies trying to mathematically prove the existence of God, also a pretty stupid thing to be doing. Being too far away from the center of either side of the bell curve for anything as widely applicable as intelligence is ultimately unideal, there's a reason humans were molded by evolution to have like 100 IQ and not 400+
